Survivor over Her skin color, Breast Cancer

She doesn't understand the pain imposed why me she states falling into a drug induced deep sleep

 Medication not street drug same effect different legality

 Breast cancer she's dying

 Under age 40

 Experienced life but not living her highest potential

 Teenage pregnancy, abuse both sexually and mentally

 Held down by society identified as a single Black women never been married

 Politically correct African American

Except she's never been or wasn't born in Africa

 America is her citizenship why does she have to identify it,

 The unfair treatment

 Her life goes on many stories told through her behavior

 Suicidal attempts not wanting live

 No one could read  through the attempts

 Her soul was emotionally died since birth a Minority, Black, African American Women

 Read the Labels

 Poor and improvised her life seemly never had a chance

 Breast cancer she'll beat the odds

 Medication, Chemotherapy she does it all

 The strongest women on the face on the earth

 The Women who survived breast Cancer and life against all odds

The Black Women a survival when she suppose to die

By Will: PAIN

It seems as if pain has become my best friend as my love ones has become distant whom voice has become nothing more than a hollow echo with no meaning that I can not interpret. Why do I feel like the world has become so far from understanding my pain that I'm the only one standing in it when it's full of people that are like statues standing with no feelings or compassion for my experiences whose ...

hands are like stones weighted down that they can't lift them to give me a helping hand as I struggle to survive. Do I not look like their daughter or mother how about their aunt or sister? Do I favor who you call a relative when we are family beyond a last name? Do my children look like yours? You may say no because your children are dressed in European brand names and my children are not but yet we both want the best for them so why can't you see my children as your own when they both are faced with same disadvantages and economic prejudices because of skin tone so this should let you know that our children are connect because of skin tone and not last names. So can you see it in your heart now to break the stones from your hands and come out of your statue state of mind and help ease my pain

He Knows

She appears to other Woman as so Strong
He knows

He sees
She's really Weak
He's not naïve toward the outer perceptions
He recognize she's
Pretending
For other Woman
Her Spirit
All too familiar
Witnessing his mother
Masquerading
Strength
In front of other Woman
At home showing her Real Face
Yelling
Screaming
Overly Demanding
Angry
Frustrated
Hurting
And in Pain
Loneliness
No Man to hold her at home
Other Woman saw her as
Strong
Their way of combating with
And denying that their
Hurt
Extends very far its
Immersed
Within their Mind
To believe what they perceive as Strength of Women
Needing to have another Woman appear
Stronger
His Mom was that Role Model Of fake Strong Women,
He knows
Her Character Is unreal
She’s lying
He will Not enable her to keep
Fantasizing
He see that she's really
Insecure
Sure she weaker than the other Woman
Perception
Observation
Belief
She’s well-built
He Knows
She just wants to
Release
She grieving
A loss of a true love experience
That never came to be
Hindered by fear to let go
He knows
Compassion has never been
Impediment
Taken into a Heartfelt consideration
For the well-being of her Soul
He knows
She irritated
Feels letdown from nonfulfillment a void where love should have filled 
Forced to put on a
Lie
She's Strong
Well-built
To be alone
He Knows
She’s Strong
For Protection
Coping through the
Fears
She may never have that Man
To Help her
Truly
See herself Inside out where her true strength lies
He knows
He desires to love her
She keeps on like she
Too Strong
And doesn't need a man
He knows
He has to be a Real
Strong
Man
Love her until she’s
Weak
Show other Woman
She needed her Man all alone
Love her essence
As a Women
Endless
He knows!

*Sighs*

She laid her face submerging her nose deep in his scent left on her pillow, closes her eyes envisioning him
She never seen
*Sighs*
Inhale loneliness, exhales intense unreached sweet purification non existed body reacting chemically lacking his body
Wraps his love a far off
Soon he will come
Close her eyes deeply inhaled his scent imagining an aroma that arousal her
Senses
His body never touched her bed fantasizing a
Sensational experience
His mind a sweet spot her words satisfy his Mental urge for a sugar high
Flow so sweet, drops of pure honey, her word a Queen bee, thoughts the workers, her touch drips Honey, she locks him Mentally in a million honey combs within her LoveHive
From her mouth he eats, from her Mind lies his sweet pleasures
Thoughts of a Black Man
Demeanor, her honey
Love provides natural sweeteners, night time craving for sweets
Fulfilled
Lays her heart on his chest, arm wrapped in his warm embrace within a passionate moment she gives the sweet illusion all her loving energy
Realizing its only her's
Lips created from dark brown sugar
Smelling like sweet air that's cleaned with peppermint licks, illusions of him Soul Fulfilling
Sleeps in sweetness smelling Him in the presences of lonely love craving a midnight sweet snack
BitterSweetness

A half century



A half century still walking to be free but now have become

Institutionalized from the mental and spiritual prison

While being Murdered, Hung and Burned

Now wanting forgiveness

But made those people to forget and accept that

So you made them believe Islam is the way of life, because Christianity came from the Salve master

Like our people before lived or exist proclaiming to be Muslim

When Islam didn't Exist and there was no Christians either

No Religion, we were once truly Mentally and Spiritually Free
A half century still walking to be free but now have become

Institutionalized from Mental and spiritual prison

While Islam and Christianity promises

Freedom

Suppressing each other like we aren't even people!

I Exist And it can't be Questioned

I question and I scold not knowing what to perceive of a life in
Chaos
Defer my dreams put them on hold
Settle with life, its hard to battle through
Uncertainties
I loose to the pain frustration that
I gave in
At a breath for nothing but
A hopeless thought
Taken deeply in what's left of life

Is it possible to dangle in a piece of
Hope
Some clarity
Blank dark box
No escape
Living walking aimless
No direction at all
What is a life worth living if I never live my
Existence
No question ask
No scold from others
No reason to question
I Live Because I  Exist And it can't be Questioned!!!

Divided Roads....

Our Road didn't lead to
Love
Ended in
Lost
Devastating Relief
Our Minds
Baste with great Ease
Elated
Separating our Lost Love
Fortunate our road
Lead us to
Truth
Truth of Love
In its Purest form
Calamity
Envisioning
Our roads crossing at an
Interception of Love
Love sharing
Our roads covered in
Manifested
Life of Love
Without words
Our roads just
IS
Our Existence
We once traveled
Together
Our roads have
Separated
No longer
Can we both
Travel down the same
Life Journey!







Crying over a morning cup of coffee....

Crying over a morning cup of coffee
If only she could jump and dwell within the relaxing caffeine
Trying to leave yesterday conversation
Mishaps
Hurt feelings
Sadness in yesterday
But yesterday is today and
Life continuous
It's the same as it was yesterday
Life gets better
What is the point
Life will repeat itself again tomorrow
If she wake to see it
Drink some coffee
The aroma
If only it could remove her mind literally out her body
Don't desire to think or feel Emotions this morning
She drink one-cup two cups
Damn
She understand addictions
Ready to try something stronger
Desperate to escape her own heart
Abandon her Soul
Just so she don't have to deal, face herself
Naked and Empty
She spill tears over the Cup of morning coffee as she sip
Depression no good for self no better for others
What life is that control
No control at all
Scared of hurt not her own
She endow the pain his/theirs
She's a warrior
She takes it all
But she's a coward  just want break and run
Run from it she's scared to face them
She sip the coffee let the tears flow over her morning cup
No one understand
Those that do see her weakness
She's ~Exposed~
How dare she go on being a Counterfeit Strong
Clearly an illusion
Those that know
Sees right into the very depth of her
Weak soul
Crying over a morning cup of coffee she sip while tears fall!

Painting my own ~Reality~

Redefining the colors of Life
Black & White, Grey scale are not stimulating~ Art is my Life~
Colors are Vivid bright Who can out shine mine
Life is Defined through ~Colors~
I paint for the World to perceive~ Art~
Painting ~Life~
Coloring~ Experiences~
Was Feeling ~Blue~
Painting Mistakes|Disappointment & Failure
Color White allow my emotions to ~Purify~ through you
The Most High The One I AM
Color Purple hold my mind in ~Royalty~
DeThroning Negativity
                                                       Painting my own ~Reality~

Oneness

Soul has No form
Their's form Love
Complete Oneness
His Spirit
Her Joy
Her Joy is His
And His is Her
Peace
Their Love is
Wisdom
They enjoy
Bliss
Oneness
Their Soul is
One Being
Two Human Hearts beating as
One in Spirit
He Sounds like Her
She looks like Him
The One
Though you see
Two
Not his other half
Her half is him
The whole him is her
Love like this is
One

NO SLEEP.....

She lays awake at night
No tossing from side to side
Looking left
Starring Mentally
Writing failure in her head
Not desiring to turn over
To the right
All the choices
Her Mind lead
Her Heart felt it was Right
Turned out Hurting
Right doesn't feel dreadfully wrong
Leaving an ache in her
Spiritual Heart
She lays awake
Emotional pain runs deep
When she's does fall asleep
Mind has no Peace
Many mistakes
She made through the day
She lays awake
So dead
She closes her Eyes
Can never make sense of it all
She holds her breath
Tears fall
Laying awake
In cold silence
Fears being Judge
She holds it all in
Sleep far from her
Life unravels at
Night
She stays awake
Trying recapture
Pieced together
Promising herself
She'll never do those action again
Soaking in misery
No greater sorrow
Nightly to see her
True self
Dark
Confused
Misguided Heart
Who can Understand
Her!

Sensational Experience

Everyday she anticipates
Hearing from
The One
And each emotion she feel
Is one that excite her
Inner Being
Beyond Explanation of words
Words that haven't even been
Discovered yet
Words of significance
A day isn't a day without a
Word from
The One
The sun isn't
Bright
Without a Smile of
On the Face of
The One
Her minds been
Neglected
She Dreams of a
Sensational Experience
Desiring
Yearning
Trying not to search for it
Hoping if she's
Patience
His presences will invaded her
Emptiness
She'll open her
Heart
Pour into him her
Soul
To Experience Sensation
That's been withheld
From her Soul

He's Still King!!!!

She Speak Words that
Invade
Captivate
And Cultivate
The neocortex
Sparks the frontal Lobe
Brings Stimulating
Dopamine
In which his
Mind she clothe's
She The One that gives
Vision to his
Life
While broadening his
Occipital lobe
She invest in his
Mind while most
Invest in his
Pockets
With an Return
On their Bodies
Body
To unclothe
She raise his
Conscious
To a higher level
He can
Dialogue
She's not just a
Thought
She Embedded into his
Temporal lobe
While most
Women
Speak of things
She's the only
One
That can speak
Sit back and
Watch
What She spoke
Unfold
She the one that gives
Navigation
To his
Sensations
His Manly Essences
With precise position
Having taped into his
Partial lobe
She's the one that can
Touch
Both hemispheres of his
Brain
Elevate him beyond a
Third density
Causing him to feel no more
Pain
Or longing to
Prove his
Manhood
He's always
The King
Within their
Home

Opinionated

She's opinionated
Not sharing the
Opinion
Of his
Is what He says
As within a losing
Verbal battle
He wants to
Dominate
Bully
Her into
Agreement
Simply because he's a
Man
She stands her
Ground
He continue to try
Shake her
Mental foundation
He leaves the
Verbal word exchange
In Disbelief
She didn't give in
She's opinionated
He has no other word to use
She has made him
Realize
Through her
Relentless
Tone of voice
Louder
Vibration
An attempt to
Intimidated her
She has an opinion
Not unifying with his
She's so Opinionated
His last desperate Words
To Persuade her into agreement with his!

A Woman's Mentality

A Woman

Mentality

Would not fall

For that

She knows That

Her body is more than

That

Pain she does not need to

Feel

Devotion

To her

Inner Needs

Love and Affection

Warmth of her Man

Words and Actions

Thoughtful

 Embrace

That’s always

Demonstrate

To show She’s Loved

Every Day

 

So you can keep that

"Thug" mentality

Keep your hands

Selfishness

Low-self worth

And hurtful words to

Yourself

There are plenty of

Girls

Who like Bad Boys

But as for ME

 I am a Woman

My mentality will

Never

Be mistaken for a

Girls!

Words of Poetry Dethrones Her Fears

Her mind's in
Disarray
Having trouble
Sorting through
Thoughts
Troublesome

Spoke what she
Feared
The Most
Words of her
True Feelings
Flowing

She's Releasing
Mind cannot take the
Captivity
Imprisoning
Thoughts and
Feelings
Suppressing
Her true self
Living her
Created
Visions

Mental Wall barriers
Barriers
Mighty and Tall
Barricades thoughts
Touching the Heights
Of her highest Thinking
She forces her
Thoughts

Locking them
Deep Within
Fearing
One day
She will
Lose It

Her created
Mental functioning
Has caused internal
Pain
Such a Tragedy

Desiring lighter
Air
Illusion of living
Daily finding it hard
Breathing
Air heavy
Many nights staying
Awake
Scares her

Intoxicating
Choking Joy
Out of Her
Gaining Peace
Only when she
Sleeps

Beloved words
Grabs paper and Pen
Desperate efforts to
Exhale And Breath
Words spew out
Poetry

Secures her within its
Comforts
Of pure

Love
In Love
With Words

Thoughts flow with ease
Her creative way of
Releasing her
Fears

Words of Poetry Dethrones Her Fears

Simply Love

I love you unconditional

Your name is simply Love in my Dreams
I cannot see your face
But I know your real
We naturally intertwine
My spirit
Your spirit
Looks absolutely beautiful
Loving each other
We form oneness under the Heavens
I'm overwhelmed with your presence of love
In the Spiritual rim
So heavy my physical body reacts
I smile
Feel happy
And I have never seen you
Only felt your Spirit
Your Love for me
During the nights when I dream
I cringe
Get nervous
At the thought of seeing your Human form
What will you look like
Smell like
How's it going to feel when you touch me
I can go on
I love you so much
Its far from emotional

Good night, Beautiful soul



What a dream that would be

Good night, Beautiful soul
He whispers with Spiritual essences

As I drift, off to sleep

Visioning him and me

Flashes of the two

Us living life together

Within my core awakening state

I slumber on Earth surface

Sleep
Beautiful Soul

Rumbling over in over

Within my cataleptic psyche

His words have invaded my dreams

Within an innate pleasure

What a reverie to indulge my being within
Feels so factual

His tone

When he spoke Beautiful Soul

Gently stroking

Providing an emotional necessary
For my all day neglected body

Opening my eyes

Desiring to fixate both dilate pupils

On him 

Tenderly cueing him

Join me

Warmly in voice pitch

It is our Beautiful Soul

Combining my eyes

Secure within his words

What a dream that would be

Good night beautiful soul

Make-Up

Make-Up her Face

Masked her natural face

Original untouched Face

Viewers journey through the Hurt

She's Faced

Creating Raw Art

Fantasizing

Conceals face

Shame

Face has an astonishing Mural of Lies

Autographed singed

Master of manipulation

Adjusting the mirror

Darken the eyes

Color Black

Scary

Death and deadly eyes

Flesh color

Blush soft bristles

Across her Face

Sweeping away what’s left

Morality

She Makes-Up her Face

"Playfully Bliss"

Loneliness
Boredom
Times when my mind wanders to Spiritual bliss
My Soul mate and I make enamored
Adulate love faces
Body curls forms shapes of tenderness, no shape at all
Expressed formless body smiles
Canonize with these thoughts
Bowhead
Humbling
Whispers in air
My love
One day when our human structures are at our loneliest times
We will meet
Blow kisses in the physical

"I'm Here"

I Always wanted to be who I thought was more important to the ones I loved,
I wanted them to respect the person I wasn't!
Living my life through the perception of who I should be hoping there I'll find acceptance and unconditional love locked in their box built for me!
Being scared to show who I really AM inside out, they never knew the Real Me, fear kept me locked in!
Those fears have been overtaken by Pure Joy from writing out this what I feel
Now I'm soaring to great Heights
Now I'm living out my life Purpose
I found so much truth deep within, I write it out
I'm giving my words over in hopes it'll encourage you
All of what I have inside of Me, I'm sharing with words of Poetry
I feel like I have a brand New Soul
And with it I can face my most difficult times through expressing my feelings during those times in the Form of Poetry
The Creator has been good to me
I AM who I was to be from the beginning
I'm Free
Sharing my freedom through my Poetry for the World to see
I AM Me!